When I first read that last week my first reaction was a healthy dose of humility and fear.
It humbled me because I could relate to how XI was feeling and it scared me because I love what's been created here and I want to grow and nuture it and I don't want to lose sight of our spirit like Death and Taxes did.
Everytime I have to deal with someone harshly, everytime I have to make a tough choice about guild direction, everytime I tweak what we have here or invite someone to the guild I'm putting everything on the line again. But in reading what XI wrote I realized something. The fact that I do have fears, that I do approach every major decision with a caution, the fact that we try to make a home for new members and put expections on them to make this their home helps me deal with those healthy fears. Its not rationization, its recogition that no one is immune, no one is holier than thou, and no one is so secure that they can treat each other with reckless abandon.
We created the recognition program as a way to continue to grow the spirit of Civilian. And just like that program, the spirit of Civilian is about you the member and not us the humble servants. As long as we keep ourselves aligned in this way we will make it through.